birthday kisses

Posted by on Feb 26, 2013 in Uncategorized | 0 comments

birthday kisses

Today is the last day of my twenties. Tomorrow I turn 30.  The coolest feeling is that I have no yearning to do anything birthdaycrazy or out of the ordinary. I want to live the life God has entrusted to me. I want to be with the people He has put in my life. I want to minister in the way that He has called me to minister.  I want to live another day of this life because I am so pleased to be right where He has me.

I just listened to the hymn, For the Beauty of the Earth, play softly in the background and felt as though it very appropriately conveyed my current sentiment. Earlier today, I thumbed through a childhood scrapbook I made and smiled back at the pictures. I ran across my purity covenant I made almost exactly 15 years ago and still feel like that little girl just learning what it means to live in faithfulness to my eternal Bridegroom. I have since traded in my girlhood purity ring for a wedding ring.

Whether I feel like a full-grown adult woman or not, my God sees me as His little daughter whom He loves, cherishes, and scoops up into His arms.  I’m still that baby girl that needs correction and loving discipline from my Heavenly Daddy who knows best how to teach me and transform me.  He still melts my heart with the width and depth of His tender heart towards me and the rest of humanity.  I don’t understand why He is mindful of us all, but I know without a doubt that He is… He knows our names. He knows our insecurities and feeble vulnerabilities and our heart’s deepest desires.little girls

What do I want for my thirtieth birthday? I truly want more than anything kisses from God and the overwhelming joy of His presence.

I read a few verses this morning that spoke out my true desire: Psalm 27:1, 4, 8: “The Lord is my light and my salvation- whom shall I fear?  The Lord is the stronghold of my life- of whom shall I be afraid?… One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek:  that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple… My heart says of you, ‘Seek his face!’  Your face, Lord, will I seek.”

The last verse of the hymn, For the Beauty of the Earth, communicates what a gift Jesus really is:

For Thyself, best Gift Divine,

To the world so freely given,

For that great, great love of Thine,

Peace on earth and joy in heaven.

Lord of all, to Thee we raise

This, our hymn of grateful praise.